About my interest and the Quest

About eight to nine years back, I used to listen to "Bhajan"s of Santa Kabi Bhima Bhoi, a poet from the Eastern region of India. Never knowing what he means in his songs. He used a lot of references to "Parambrahma", I started to google it. After some time passed with a renewed interest I started to look for videos in YouTube to find "What is Life" and "Who is God". In my mind I got convinced that, there is somebody who is running this universe; such a big creation can't run on its own. If something is created then someone must have created it! Since the time known nothing has been created out of nothing, someone somewhere has been creating things; I could not find a single example of something being created on its own. 

After spending a considerable time on YouTube and watching many videos from many religions one becomes a sort of convinced that the whole world from centuries can't be fool and there is God, who so ever He/She is. A lot of time went after this without any quest.

On my Android mobile one day out of curiosity I downloaded one app on Bhagvat Gita, listened to it in my free time. Bhagvat Gita though has been present in my house since I was a child but I never read it thinking that it must have contained different "slokas" on how to worship Hindu Gods. After listening to translation of it in Hindi, I was surprised that it only tells about "How to live a pious Life". So I listened to that app three to four times, every time I listened I never got bored because the amount of philosophy given in it is colossal. Still I believe I have not understood it completely.

I found out that there are several translations of Bhagvat Gita from the original Sanskrit text; I wanted to listen/read to the original translation to Hindi, the reason being that different sects in Hinduism interpret it in different ways. I never wanted to get influenced by any one of them. I wanted to know what actually the original one said. After a little bit of searching here and there I have zeroed it on to Bhagvat Gita by Gita Press. Currently I am reading/listening it whenever I get time. 

A lot of questions arise in my mind after listening or reading to Bhagvat Gita. Now I am onto find suitable satisfactory answers to them because proof finding to all questions is nearly impossible.         

I long for this

Today I came to learn of a family who was a devoted Shiva worshiper. To please Shiva five of them died, in the hope to see him in actual.  I don't  know whether  any  one of them  was able to find him or not but if God is present here in such a form, if Shiva is actually there then it's okay otherwise five persons have wasted there life for the unknown.

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/india/Five-of-family-die-in-Jaipur-during-ritual-invoking-deity-to-appear/articleshow/19267211.cms

There is one persistent doubt in my mind; I see a lot of wealthy persons who are having enough wealth to devote time for God, like me a middle class person can't even think of that.  I have my mundane duties always in my mind. I see this quest in a way that I earn such an amount of money that for the rest of my life I can devote time to find "Who is He", devote time to solve the greatest mystery of all time Who is He. Another view is that; when you know that all these things are "Maya" in this world then why are you desiring for such amount of money.  Find God in your current life in the current socioeconomic situation. Don't long for money don't try to increase "Papa" in your life by longing for money.  This dilemma comes to my mind more often when I find difficulties in my current work life; minor hindrances. 

A couple of days ago I read a very apt comment about Hinduism by one of the judges in one income tax tribunal at Nagpur saying that God in Hinduism is nothing but three supernatural powers of earth in the name of Shiva, Brahma and Vishnu.  I with my current level of understanding of God found this definition very true. But other people who keep visiting temple daily to find God they will definitely not agree to the poor judge. 

I long to be at a peaceful place with all the time in this world available with me and at my discretion. The true nature minus the hustle bustle of the crazy world; it will be a bliss if it's without any worries of my present day lifestyle. The world offers you so much to learn but a pity that we have so less time.

Way of life and Religion

I believe that God is one for all religions. There is no proof but adequate logic to make anybody understand. Then a question comes to my mind that "Why There Are So Many Religions?".
Initial Vedic people used to worship the five elements of nature. Adequate proof can be found out in different excavations in India.  They used Agni as a medium of worship. The Vedas were never written down they were only "Shrutis". In the olden times like today all the living human beings were not of the same intellectual level, hence to make all these people understand and get them into one common platform a mechanics was required in the form of a 'Way of Life'. So that everyone can live in harmony in the same society.

If the actual Vedic way of worship was told to all, not every body can comprehend it at the same level, not everyone can understand the cause of worship. Hence rituals were born. 

To make everybody stay within a disciplined society certain rules were made so that all including the intellectuals and the commoner form the same fabric of the society. These rules were conveyed in the garb of religion, so that all will fear these rules and hence abide by them. If we analyse all the religions of the world they will tell us a set of rules to be followed and certain rules for not doing a thing. These rules differed from one geographical location to the other based on things like food habits of its people, climate and natural resources. These guidelines became the way of life for people living in that geographical region. 

Humans were scattered all around the globe in isolated pockets when there was no trade. When these scattered group of individuals started interacting with other set of scattered individuals they started to identify the different beliefs/way of life the other group of individuals were having and the difference in their beliefs vis a vis the other group. So they started to identify themselves differently. Soon they started a name for each group. I am not a Hindu if others don't recognise me as a Hindu! They are the one who have named me who I am.

What a complex life!

Life, I have either knowingly or unknowingly made it a complex bit of affairs. Whatever I have or whoever I am, why am I always craving for more? I am actually never satisfied with what life has given me. I always want something good, something better. Hardly any of us is ready to accept life as it is,  that is the root cause of all disappointments. It broods unhappiness and leads to subsequent anger and jealousy. 

If I don't like anything I would like to have it my way and when I become unsuccessful I will be unhappy. The story never ends here and my unhappiness will soon spread to my family, friends and colleagues, what a pity.

 

I look around and find people rushing through their lives as if it was some kind of a big race. Everybody is running in this race. Eventually I am so accustomed to running that I forgot what the actual race where I should run. 

 

By running in many small races and thinking them to be the big race, I forgot to realise what the ultimate race is.